I never knew it would be so hard.
I remember when Hayley was 6 weeks old and I was completely ready to go back to work (after 6 weeks of bedrest and 6 weeks of maternity leave).
I remember the feeling of needing structure.
At least, I think I remember those feelings.
It has been one of those weeks. Hayley is growing like a weed, I keep hearing about all of the stay-at-home-moms and how much they do with their kids, and I want to be like them. I want to be with her...
She is the most beautiful person I have ever laid my eyes on. I want to teach her to crawl, to walk, to talk and I want to make sure I am THERE when she passes those milestones. But who knows if I will be?
Being a stay-at-home-mom is a hard subject for me. I know it isn't possible right now and I am willing to make the sacrifices so that one day, I can be home with my kids, but seeing other mom's staying home with their cuties makes me ache for my daughter. I work at a pediatric office for crying out loud! I see non-working mom's all day long!
I have been researching jobs from home but I don't trust them. I honestly love my job and am very lucky for the opportunities that I have but no matter how much I love my job, I love my daughter more.
Who wouldnt?...
Just a lot of feelings in my heart. I know they will not change for years to come but they are still there and it is hard to supress them when you have a daughter that looks and smiles like mine does.
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I shop at Target and Babies R Us. The dress she is wearing in those pictures is from Target. It's in the bigger sizes, not the baby section. The smallest size they have is 12months but they run pretty small.
I hear you! I am also going back to work in 5 more weeks. Part of me is really ready but the other part knows that after a while I will be wanting to be home with my baby all day everyday! But I have a husdband who needs to be put through school. I'm glad I get to see you when I go the the Dr. :)
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